PART SEVEN Chapter 2
`Do go then, please, and call on the Bols,' Kitty said to her husband, when he came in to see her at eleven o'clock before going out. `I know you are dining at the club; papa put down your name. But what are you going to do in the morning?'
`I am only going to Katavassov,' answered Levin.
`Why so early?'
`He promised to introduce me to Metrov. I wanted to talk to him about my work. He's a distinguished savant from Peterburg,' said Levin.
`Yes; wasn't it his article you were praising so? Well, and after that?' said Kitty.
`I shall go to the court, perhaps, about my sister's business.'
`And the concert?' she queried.
`I shan't go there all alone.'
`No? Do go; there are going to be some new things.... That used to interest you so. I should certainly go.'
`Well, anyway, I shall come home before dinner,' he said, looking at his watch.
`Put on your frock coat, so that you can go straight to call on Countess Bol.'
`But is it absolutely necessary?'
`Oh, absolutely! He has been to see us. Come, what is it? You go in, sit down, talk for five minutes of the weather, get up, and go away.'
`Oh, you wouldn't believe it! I've got so out of the way of all this that it makes me feel positively ashamed. It's such a horrible thing to do! A complete outsider walks in, sits down, stays on with nothing to do, wastes their time and upsets himself, and then goes away!'
Kitty laughed.
`Why, I suppose you used to pay calls before you were married, didn't you?'
`Yes, I did, but I always felt ashamed, and now I'm so unaccustomed to it that, by God, I'd sooner go two days running without my dinner than pay this call! One's so ashamed! I feel all the while that they're annoyed, that they're saying: What has he come for?'
`No, they won't. I'll answer for that,' said Kitty, looking into his face with a laugh. She took his hand. `Well, good-by.... Do go, please.'
He was just going out after kissing his wife's hand, when she stopped him.
`Kostia, do you know I've only fifty roubles left?'
`Oh, all right, I'll go to the bank and get some. How much?' he said, with the expression of dissatisfaction she knew so well.
`No, wait a minute.' She held his hand. `Let's talk about it, it worries me. I seem to spend nothing unnecessarily, but money seems simply to fly away. We don't manage well, somehow.'
`Not at all,' he said with a little cough, looking at her from under his brows.
That cough she knew well. It was a sign of intense dissatisfaction, not with her, but with himself. He certainly was displeased, not at so much money being spent, but at being reminded of what he, knowing something was unsatisfactory, wanted to forget.
`I have told Sokolov to sell the wheat, and to borrow an advance on the mill. We shall have money enough in any case.'
`Yes, but I'm afraid that altogether it's too much....'
`Not at all, not at all,' he repeated. `Well, good-by, darling.'
`No, I'm really sorry sometimes that I listened to mamma. How nice it would have been in the country! As it is, I'm worrying you all, and we're wasting our money.'
`Not at all, not at all. Not once since I've been married have I said that things could have been better than they are....'
`Truly?' she said, looking into his eyes.
He had said it without thinking, simply to console her. But when he glanced at her and saw those sweet truthful eyes fastened questioningly on him, he repeated it with his whole heart. `I was positively forgetting her,' he thought. And he remembered what was before them, so soon to come.
`Will it be soon? How do you feel?' he whispered, taking her two hands.
`I have so often thought so, that now I don't think about it, or know anything about it.'
`And you're not frightened?'
She smiled contemptuously.
`Not the least little bit,' she said.
`Well, if anything happens, I shall be at Katavassov's.'
`No, nothing will happen, and don't think about it. I'm going for a walk on the boulevard with papa. We're going to see Dolly. I shall expect you before dinner. Oh, yes! Do you know that Dolly's position is becoming utterly impossible? She's in debt all round; she hasn't a penny. We were talking yesterday with mamma and Arsenii' (this was her sister's husband, Lvov), `and we determined to send you with him to talk to Stiva. It's really unbearable. One can't speak to papa about it.... But if you and he...'
`Why, what can we do?' said Levin.
`You'll be at Arsenii's, anyway; talk to him - he will tell you what we decided.'
`Oh, I agree to everything Arsenii thinks beforehand. I'll go and see him. By the way, if I do go to the concert, I'll go with Natalie. Well, good-by.'
On the steps Levin was stopped by his old servant Kouzma, who had been with him before his marriage, and now looked after their household in town.
`Little Adonis' (that was the left shaft horse brought up from the country) `has been shod anew, but she is still lame,' he said. `What does Your Honor wish to be done?'
During the first part of their stay in Moscow, Levin had used his own horses brought up from the country. He had tried to arrange this part of their expenses in the best and cheapest way possible; but it appeared that their own horses came dearer than hired horses, and they still hired additional horses.
`Send for the veterinary - there may be a bruise.'
`And for Katerina Alexandrovna?' asked Kouzma.
Levin was not by now struck as he had been at first by the fact that to get in Moscow from the Vozdvizhenka to the Ssivtzev-Vrazhek he had to have two powerful horses put into a heavy carriage, to take the carriage a quarter of a versta through the snowy mush and to keep it standing there four hours, paying five roubles every time.
Now it seemed quite natural.
`Hire a pair for our carriage from the livery stable,' said he.
`Yes, sir.'
And so, simply and easily, thanks to the facilities of town life, Levin settled a question which, in the country, would have called for so much personal trouble and exertion, and, going out on the steps, he called a sleigh, sat down, and drove to the Nikitskaia. On the way he thought no more of money, but mused on the introduction that awaited him to the Peterburg savant, a writer on sociology, and what he would say to him about his book.
Only during the first days of his stay in Moscow Levin had been struck by the expenditure, strange to one living in the country, unproductive but inevitable, that was expected of him on every side. But by now he had grown used to it. That had happened to him in this matter which is said to happen to drunkards - the first glass sticks in the throat, the second flies down like a hawk, but after the third they're like tiny little birds. When Levin had changed his first hundred-rouble note to pay for liveries for his footman and hall porter he could not help reflecting that these liveries were of no use to anyone - but they were indubitably necessary, to judge by the amazement of the Princess and Kitty when he suggested that they might do without liveries - that these liveries would cost the wages of two laborers for the summer - that is, would pay for about three hundred working days from Easter to the fast of Advent, and each a day of hard work from early morning to late evening - and that hundred-rouble note did stick in his throat. But the next note, changed to pay for providing a dinner for their relations, that cost twenty-eight roubles, though it did excite in Levin the reflection that twenty-eight roubles meant nine chetverts of oats, which men would with groans and sweat have reaped and bound and threshed and winnowed and sifted and sown - this next one he parted with more easily. And now the notes he changed no longer aroused such reflections, and they flew off like little birds. Whether the labor devoted to obtaining the money corresponded to the pleasure given by what was bought with it, was a consideration he had long ago dismissed. His business calculation that there was a certain price below which he could not sell certain grain was forgotten too. The rye, for the price of which he had so long held out, had been sold for fifty kopecks a chetvert cheaper than it had been fetching a month ago. Even the consideration that with such an expenditure he could not go on living for a year without debt, even that had no force. Only one thing was essential: to have money in the bank, without inquiring where it came from, so as to know that one had the wherewithal to buy meat for tomorrow. And this condition had hitherto been fulfilled; he had always had the money in the bank. But now the money in the bank had gone, and he could not quite tell where to get the next installment. And this it was which, at the moment when Kitty had mentioned money, had disturbed him; but he had no time to think about it. He drove off, thinking of Katavassov and the meeting with Metrov which was before him.